|Yaoi and it's folly
||[Jul. 8th, 2007|04:23 pm]
|[||Tags|||||bishounen, boy, community, help, play, playing, pretty, role, rpg, shounen ai, yaoi||]|
Yaoi is a wonderful thing. Pretty boys romancing, loving and eventually bedding with each other in any way imaginable. It's really an addiction in some ways. To be able to express yourself without really being in love - Or being in love.
Ah but it's folly. The communities are so small, in comparison with the rest of the world. As I lay my friend to rest with out last all-out fight, I find myself completely alone. I've no one to role play with, as I was very content with that one person. And where do I go to find others to play yaoi RP?
Certainly not a community. While the people there are absolutely fantastic, and the stories they come up with are nothing short of beautiful, I find the restrictions to be.. suffocating. You must be here, you must do this, you must play these particular characters, you must behave this way.. there is almost no range for me to express myself. Instead I have to find a way around what I have to do, in order to somewhat express what I want to really do.
I'm a character designer. This is what I do. I design characters, and I play them. I've many, many characters. This is just my preference, and only that.
I have nothing, nothing-nothing-nothing, against playing other people's characters. I just wish I could find a place, where I could be with people like myself. People who make their own characters. Fan fiction writers, cartoonists, conceptual artists... Anything, you know?
I may have missed something terribly obvious. I may have not. But the end result is, I want to role play, and I want to use my characters, or use other people's characters the way I want to use them. I won't go blowing up buildings with some unimaginable power. I won't slaughter many or suddenly have everything my way and nobody else's.
But I just want to be.. me. You know? Or someone else. You know what I mean. It's solely a personality thing, I swear.
Well that's about all of it. You can check my art site if you want to see any designs I've come up with since the last time I posted.. oh.. I imagine some years ago at this point. :3
Thank you for reading my stuffy, well written paper. Honestly.. I don't talk like this. I have no idea why I am now.. ugh. /pain